I STILL CRY FOR THE WAY YOU SUFFERED, AND THE WAY YOU DIED . YOU WERE SO BRAVE AND SUFFERED SILENTLY. I AM SO ANGRY WHERE WAS YOUR NURSE , WHERE WAS A HOSPITAL BED, WHERE WAS HOSPICE, WHERE WAS ANYONE TO JUST SIT WITH YOU AND HOLD YOU. I TREAUSURE THE MOMENTS MIKE AND I CAME DOWN RUBBING YOUR BACK, BRUSHING WHAT LITTLE HAIR YOU HAD LEFT AND THAN K YOU FOR SHARING EVERYTHING WITH ME MIKE AND EVEN TELLING DAD. I WILL NEVER FORGIVE THE ANGER IS THERE, THAT LAST WEEK WWHEN YOU FELL WE WERE ALL THERE ALL DAY NO ONE ELSE WAS THERE , I HELD YOU YOU TOLD ME YOU KNEW YOU WERE DYING, AS WE ALREADY KNEW IT WOULD BE VERY SOON, AND THEN YOU FELL AGAIN. THE ANGER IS STILL VERY RAW IT WAS UNSPEAKABLE. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH IT HURTS ME SO BAD I AM CRYING THINKING OF THE WAY YOU DIED. THANK YOU FOR SHARING WITH ME WE WERE SO CLOASE THOSE LAST 5 YEARS I AM SO HAPPY TO HAVE MY LILLY BACK, EVEN FOR SUCH A SHOT TIME. I LOVE YOU MY DARLING L ILLY . DEAR LORD WHY DID SHE HAVE TO ENDURE ALL SHE DID
