Wednesday, November 16, 2016
My dad and I weren't the best of friends and we had our up and downs. But he was my dad and I loved him with all of my heart. Despite the arguing we may have had he was always on my mind and my heart. 18 long years of no contact. I wanted so badly to hold him and introduce him to my kids. His grandkids. I like to believe that we are just alike. Just as stubborn and hard headed and that's why we bonded so quickly and tightly yet collided so hard too. I know he doesn't want us to morn but to celebrate his life. N I will try my hardest to do so. However I will always regret the years lost, the time missing. Daddy you will always be here with me. And I know you are up there holding your grandson (my oldest son) Jaydean, in your arms right now. One day soon I will be up there n I'll get that hug from you.. I love you very much. N I am here for anyone who wants to talk. I would love nothing more than to know my dads side of the family.
