Tuesday, November 5, 2013
FATHER IS THE SOURCE TO PARADISE
For Ashley:
Words cannot explain how much I love you Daddy. Nothing could ever compare
or even ever be as perfect as you…
You are my source to paradise.
I live here on Earth in Hell right now. I'm not ready for goodbye.
Although I love mom you are my leaning post. During the day I have to be strong.
People keep asking if I'm ok,
and I just say, “I'm just not ready for goodbye.�
I try so hard to show that nothing is wrong. It was just so sudden you had to go. And at night, I cry and cry and cry; not ready for this reality.
The call that left an empty space and started my whole world crashing down, spinning, making me feel dumb founded, or just numb.
It was so hard to believe and
I'm not ready for this life,
not one without you in it.
Not ready for bye bye,
so long or see you later.
I know that whatever I wanted, I’d ask you first because you were my first.
First to see me walk. You were there to hear me talk
Taught me all the right things
that I needed to know but I never really listened... until now.
I’m sad Daddy but I’m happy for you. Kiss Olivia for me.
But I’m just not ready for goodbye.
